Hi guys I’m so glad that you took the time out to read my blog I’m truly blessed. I have been on a healing journey but I’m back and want to stay consistent. Today is all about keeping the faith and in this place called world is so important to keep your faith strong in the lord let me explain why. These past months have been challenging for me and for my family I have been really going through some personal struggles that is really testing my faith first with my marriage and second with my children, this year i started my self healing journey because I know now what I want and what I deserve basically I just want more for myself and I’m not longer ashamed to say it. I will start with my oldest daughter she has been a challenge since she started puberty and making friends I have always given in to her no matter what I just couldn’t say no to her she was my first baby. She is the one that made me a mom at 18 years old she has went through hard times with me and seen me at my lowest but I was not that person anymore I wanted a different life for myself and my kids starting this year but she could not handle the discipline and how me and her dad now has put our foot down on things that was not tolerated or acceptable in the house. Her and her dad never got along but as she got older the resentment got worse so a week ago she felt that she could take care of her self so she ran away to stay with her friends house there was a sense of relief that moved through my body there has been so much silence and peace no anger or yelling since she been gone, I felt so free and that’s so bad to say but its true. Being a wife, a mother, a full time worker, entrepreneur and more is hard when you don’t have the support you need to succeed so I have always tried my best to raise my children the best way I know how and Im not perfect most of the time but I try and it’s been a learning experience since I became a mom at 18 years old. I know no at 32 years old that you can’t do it by yourself you need God, you need to have Jesus on your side or you will be lost I have seen the miracles work in my life so I know he is real and from now on I will forever put him first. I have seen both sides when you don’t have Jesus in your life and when you do I’m still not where I want to be but that’s all because of the choices I have made in my life and I’m grown enough to own up to it. God has already answered all my prayers he is just waiting on me to catch up to all my blessings because we are made in Gods image he wants nothing but the best for all of us but what people fail to realize is life is all about Choices. Our eyes became opened when Adam and Eve ate the apple that the devil tricked eve to eating and feeding her husband that’s when God then gave us the ability to make our own choices so when you look at your life and feel like things are not fair or not going to plan it’s because of the choices you have made, god never said that life was supposed to be easy, hard work is required in every thing we do in being physically fit and healthy in building a business, in getting your education, in being a parent, in working a 9 to 5, in having a home etc… but you can’t give up because it becomes hard especially not in Jesus he died so that our spirit can live for ever so giving up is never an option no matter how much you want it, also when you lose someone you love like a child, spouse, grandparents, parents, friends, cousins, aunts and uncles even though it will hurt so bad you feel like giving up, that doesn’t mean your life has to stop it’s going to hurt we are human it’s suppose to but you also have to realize that we are not hear to last forever, life is precious you have to not give up on God just because things get hard you have to keep going and remember the good times. That’s why I titled it keeping the faith because life be lifeing and it’s so easy to give up but we have to be stronger than the devil and constantly pray to Jesus so he can shield us from the temptations, depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, anger, resentment, stealing, killing, rape, etc….
Life is exactly what you make it so try and make the best of it no matter what, know your self worth, don’t give up and keep pushing also cherish the people around you that loves and adore you and stay positive no matter what.
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