Wild & Crazy Life Mom of 4

Hey guys I’m back with another blog it’s been a long day so thank you for taken time out of your day to sit down and read my blog. I have been going through a lot of ups and downs with my faith and sometimes It has me second guessing on what am I doing wrong why haven’t things been moving, but then I listen to my motivational speeches on YouTube and read my books and realize that God has perfect timing and I’m not doing anything wrong. I know I can start reading my Bible more and study it and be more positive but I can say I’m not as negative as I use to be so I’m very proud of myself for that, it’s a growth that I have to learn to develop again. I have to realize it took my whole 20’s to develop this negative mindset that’s 9 years so it’s not going to just work overnight. My thoughts, lack of faith and fear of failure is what’s holding me back from moving forward. I want my family, God, and me to be proud of me and I have to start by dreaming big and believing in myself, I will have bumps in the road but I can get back up and believe that God is with me on this journey and will be there in my good days and bad. When I look back at my life God has always been there for me pushing me getting me back on my feet through being a teen mom, depression, physical abuse, mentally beaten down by myself because how I viewed myself, living paycheck to paycheck, being a single mother, working two and three jobs and going to school, almost close to death twice God has been there waking me up every day saying he was not done with me, because he saw more in me than I did myself. Jesus gave his life for me and I mistreated it by my negative thoughts that’s got me we’re I am today and that’s selfish. I will not continue to let the devil win over my mind I have potential, I have success in me I just have to have faith that God will help me build my businesses and they will be successful and that I will get my whole family out of poverty out of struggling living paycheck to paycheck, that I will right books, I will get down to 140, I will have a great and loving marriage, I will build my dream home along with my mom, sisters, uncle, dad, papa and cousin and just help my family and my husbands family. This is time of patience and hard work that I’m willing to do because I will not have the same year for 2023 as I did in 2022.