Hey guys I’m back and it’s about self-love the hardest thing but the simplest word. If you had read my blog I was not in a good relationship with my Husband when we were younger, and I feel like that developed lower self-esteem in me than I already had from a broken childhood, I thought I was doing better since I been on my new faith change but it’s still there I still have feelings that my husband is not there for me, he doesn’t really love me or find me attractive, I still have moments of sadness and breaking down in tears. Today I prayed and asked god if he was cheating or doing something stupid please show me a sign I have been doing that a lot lately Because I know God can and will show me what I need to know and I have to be patient, now I have been asking for this a lot so almost every day for months, But today I said I will leave it to god and then I picked up the book by Joyce Meyer ” Battlefield of the mind” and I started reading were I left off chapter 23 and as I was reading God was talking and then I realized it’s not about my husband it’s about me all that stuff in my mind that I been thinking and praying for so I can see it’s because the hate and low self-esteem I have in myself I know God will take care of him if he is not doing right but It’s not my problem to worry about, I need to fix me and love me. I love the journey I’m on, but I don’t love me Jesus has died for me so that I can live after this life and so I will have a chance of going to heaven and I don’t love myself; that is so bad and selfish. I will never be happy or receive Gods blessings if I hate myself and my goal this year is to walk by faith and not by sight, to try every day to be more like Jesus and live a Godly life and this is not how I can achieve that goal. I’m going to stop worrying about things I cannot change, or I cannot do but on things I can and that is getting me back in a healthy state of mind, loving myself and keeping my faith on God.
You are beautiful you are loved you will achieve greatness and God loves you, I don’t know who needed to hear that but it’s for you. Wake up every day and tell yourself how amazing you are ever physical feature every flaw, God made you special and perfect just the way you are, don’t let know one tell you different. It’s a working process but you will get there and me too.
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