I have been away for a long time, and it was not on purpose I was just going through a lot of challenges, but I can say I’m doing much better and will love to share. Have you ever been rock bottom, if you have you might can relate if not then that’s great, you’re doing something right. Well it takes a toll on you, and it does not let you go just like a young child attached to their dad’s leg I was very depressed and was put on depression medication also went through mental break downs because I was feed up of how my life was going, and that every year no matter what I did I was not able to get off of that unhappy Roller Coster. I was just at my wits end and I did not know were who or what to do, now I have always known the power of prayer I grew up in the church but as I got older I felt that I can do everything on my own and I did not need or want help, so praying was out the window going to church was very little but I had to do something. My mom, sister’s aunt and cousin we made this bible group that we try and meet every other weekend to help us in our challenges, read the bible and set goals for ourselves but that was not helping as much it felt good when I went there but the next day I was back in my depression and dark days and that went on for a while. As I look back God knows are heart he knows are struggles and what we are going through, so he knew I was in the darkest moment ever and that I was not sure what I was going to do. One day I was just sitting there, and my cousin sent our group chat a picture of this book called “Battle of the mind” by Joyce Meyer, and I was like ok, she said yall have to read this book it’s really good, now I have gotten books from her before and never finished it, so I really thought I was going to do that again with this book. I got the book, and something said Kiana open it what will it hurt, I needed a change, my life needed a change so bad, so I was like let’s see if this book is really what my cousin said it was. I read the first chapter and I broke down crying it touched everything in my life I could not stop reading I stayed up reading till chapter 10 and then I said I’m putting my two weeks in for my job and I started fasting and praying, now that was crazy but I had to my life had been in a roller costar because I refused to change and I had no faith. I had to have faith that no matter what happens God will not leave or forsake me, and I started talking and mediating on God’s word and I have not felt so much better, now the devil tries to come back but I expected that because he has spent most of my adult years using me for his evil, he got comfortable. Life is a fight every day I know that now, but I now know how to handle it and that’s putting my faith in God fasting and praying so that he will show me the way instead of doing it myself its hard but nothing in this world is easy if so, this world would be a happier place.
Now I’m not saying what I went though is the same as what you’re going through but fasting, praying and studying God’s word whenever you’re going through hard time confusion, depression, suicide, abuse, and demons in your mind trying to steer you in the wrong direction or people who feel that they can do everything themselves Going to god that will help and make you feel so much better every time. Let me know what helps you in your hardship if you every had one and how you overcame it?
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