Wild & Crazy Life Mom of 4

Hi guys I’m back again with another blog, thank you so much for taking time out of your day to sit down and read it. Have you every had that person in your life you just choose not to let go no matter how bad situations between you two are, you just cant see yourself without them, well I have and it’s not a good feeling or is it healthy, it messes with your mental state. I’m trying to get on a better page in my life build a healthy foundation for my children but being in a unhealthy relationship is not how I can do that. I feel like when you love someone you don’t have to constantly worry about what if it starts to stress you out and then that starts to be the only thing you think about. In my 20’s I knew my husband was cheating and the relationship was bad but I looked passed that and decided to play (fire with fire) thinking that would be better but that just made things worse. As I got older I had to change because my kids are so important to me, they are in the stages were they depend on me, they copy everything you do because they are still learning, I want to show them a healthy lifestyle, show them they can do and be anyone they want to be and not settle for anyone who does not respect or love them. I have not been sticking to my goals because I refuse to stop worrying and just let God handle it. In the Bible God says that he is a jealous God and he does not want anyone or anything above him. Last year I was not feeling myself I was very depressed at times and it was not a good feeling so this year I need to declutter my life, read my Bible more, pray and have more faith I know if I do that every thing will start to flow for me. The thing that I always try to think or tell myself is that I’m GODS child and he will always be there to protect me in my darkest times and In my greatest moments so I just got to keep pushing and know that I’m not alone God will never leave or forsake me.